I think I’m just going to knit and watch survivor

I honestly don’t know whats wrong. I just feel really panicked right now.

I just got a card from my step-mom and my dad about my dog jasper and I just completely broke down. I thought I was better and that I was starting to heal but apparently not.

We had to put my puppy down today. I’ve had to be strong because my niece is here and she loved him and she is also sick. I really just wanna curl up in a ball and cry.

I just got back from Ten ren last night, it was awesome!! I had a blast and got to hang out with some awesome people. The weather was perfect. The whole weekend was perfect! I didn’t get to take very many pictures because I was so distracted the whole time x) But my friend Kayla took a lot of awesome ones so hopefully those will be posted at some point. Ugh This whole trip was just awesome.

Been at the ER pretty much all day with my grandpa. They still don’t know what’s wrong.

So me and Evan went to lush today and I got myself some Sweetie Pie bath jelly and some bubble gum lip scrub :D Both of them are great. Also, I went and got my mom her mothers day gift. I got her three bath and body works perfumes and I got two for myself :) It’s been a good day.

I got my hair done today! pictures later

I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep.

I still haven’t been on much lately because of three reasons.

First, one of my best friends was over for the week so we were having fun and hanging out.

Second, I’ve been sewing almost non stop to get ready for Ten Ren this weekend. I have been changing up my shirt and its been a really long process. I’ve dyed it and sewn on two different types of sequins. Since I’m hand sewing on each of the sequins myself, it has been taking a really long time. It’s pretty tiring and I don’t think I will ever sew sequins again.

Third, I still haven’t seen the new episodes of game of thrones. I’ve been meaning too but I honestly just haven’t been in the mood and I don’t feel like I can concentrate on it right now.

Also, my anxiety has been acting up again. I haven’t been sleeping well and just feeling very stressed in general. Hopefully I will feel better this weekend :) I’m super excited to hang out with some awesome friends and do something I love.

I updated a little bit even though I HAVE STILL NOT GOTTEN AROUND TO WATCHING THE NEW GOT EPISODE but that’s mainly because I’M TOO BUSY SEWING GOD DAMN SEQUINS ALL DAY.

lizz says hello to my tumblr world.

I got stuff to change up my shirt today. I dyed it orange and got a bunch of different sparkleys to sew onto it. Let me tell you, hand sewing on all of these sequins is a pain. At least it will look pretty in the end.

I am extremely tried so I’m gonna go to bed!

Also, I’m not coming back on tumblr until I watch the new game of thrones episode because I don’t want to get spoiled. :) so I may not post for awhile if I don’t get around to watching it.

I got two of my birthday presents already.

The first one is from Evan and it was Heelys :D

The second is a small one from Nathan and Kayla and it was a travel sized first aid kit. xD

They said it’s because I’m always accidentally kicking things and cutting up my toes.

Ugh. I’m mostly over being sick but my sinus’s are super raw and sore and just breathing is giving me a headache right now. I’m still a bit stuffy bit it’s getting better.

So uh, my birthday is on Saturday. At what age am I required to start actually acting like an adult? x)